Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Playing Tag

Billy over at What I Learned Today... has been kind enough to award me with not one, but two awards.

The Love Friendships Award states: "These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award.

As for the Honest Scrap award: A) First list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it honest (hence, the award 'Honest Scrap'), even if you have to dig deep! B) Pass the award on to 8 bloggers that you feel embody the role of the Honest Scrap. (This is an award only to display on your blog that everything you write on it is in truth, sincerity, and integrity.)*
A nice one, that Honest Scrap award. So I can honestly say that:

1.) When I was young, I was "daddy's little boy." Yeah, I'm a girl, always have been and always will be. I am the youngest of 4 kids; a sister, a brother, another sister...I don't think my parents were hoping for another boy, it's just how it worked out. I did everything I possibly could with my dad and spent as much time with him as possible. I miss that age when my dad was everything to me and the first person I chose to spend time with. Nothing will take my dad's place, but I do have a Father I still travel with and love spending time with.

2.) I am insecure. I was in a relationship with someone for about 7 years altogether; he was emotionally and verbally abusive to me. It has caused deep, deep trust and self-esteem issues in every single relationship that I have. When I was born again, the hardest thing for me to comprehend was that God loved me for me yet it was the thing that turned my heart toward him.

3.) I love blogging and my blogger friends. It is a safe environment for me and when I write, it feels like it's just me and God for those moments and it has helped me to be honest about what I am and who I am.

4.) I have a mantra. "Be real." I try to be real in my blogs; and I try to be real in my "real life." It requires fessing up about the mistakes I've made and sharing with others my prodigal son story. I believe that I must talk about what God has done in my life to bring him glory. If I am silent someone who needs to hear about God's grace may not experience it; can you imagine someone winning 4,000,000,000,000,000,000 and not telling anyone? This is the short version of "be real." I could go on and on...

5.) I am rebellious. Always have been and likely always will be. Not unlike any trait or characteristic, being rebellious can be a good thing or a bad thing. For many years, it wasn't a good thing and landed me in trouble many times. In a time where the morals and values seem to be declining fast, being rebellious and not wanting to conform is a good thing. I choose to use my rebelliousness for God's glory!

6.) I am not vain - but I think I have a pretty face.

7.) I believe I am capable of more. If I don't think I can succeed at something, I won't try. God and I are working on this; I listened to the story of Peter walking on water last week. When he started to sink Jesus told him he had "little faith." If stepping out on water in the first place is "little faith" I'm in trouble because I'm not sure I would have even stepped out of the boat.

8.) Until a few years ago, I never had anyone that I was completely honest with. There were always parts of my life (feelings, emotions, actions, etc.) that I keep from people - but not the same things. I would be open and honest but I would never let one person know everything, including my husband. Learning to believe that someone will accept you, all of you, is hard to after you were told you were not good enough by someone you loved is hard to overcome. Again, God is speaking to me and helping me to heal and trust; it's a process...

9.) I am a recluse. I could stay in my house and not talk to anyone for days on end.

10.) I am humbled. As I read the Bible and learn about the people that God chose and chooses to use to further his kingdom, I know that he has a plan for me. I am the sheep that went astray that he left the other 99 to find.

So, there are ten honest things. And in the spirit of keeping the ball rolling, here are my eight new award winners:

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  1. Great list, Janelle.

    I could stay in my house for days on end and not see anyone and be okay with it **smile**

  2. I have a son, but my daughter's still a tom boy. Nothing wrong with that at all.

    I love your honesty.

  3. Thanks for your honesty and the honorable mention :-) I am a recluse too, and I am okay with it :-) I was the "boy" in my family too, such a tomboy I was.

  4. You, too? I received the Honest Scrap award, too! You can read my ten secrets here.

    About 10 years ago I made the conscious choice to always speak honestly, deal honestly, live honestly. It's a wonderful way to have peace.


  5. I enjoy your honesty; about being insecure, real, about your past abusive's nice to heave a person open up with truth like this. I too suffer with insecurity, yet today I find myself suffering a different battle; depression....once I don't recognize, but fear I am entering. Please pray for me, as I will also pray for you with your site and blog posts.

  6. I was catching up on my links and realized you had tagged me. Thank you!!!! I am very humbled and gracious!! My post will be published tomorrow-2.22.09. It's called, I’ve Been Tagged! Hope you can visit! One disclaimer-it is rather long :) Thank you again for thinking of me!

  7. Hi!! And Yikes!!! I didn't realize you had tagged me!!! I'll get to work on my post!

    Oh what fun to enjoy the friendships God keeps weaving together!!! He loves us so much!!!

  8. HI Janelle,

    I'm coming to you via Alicia's blog, to welcome you to blog-land. If you are a freind of Alicia then I'm glad to know you.

    It takes courage to share that you are insecure. You know, I've thought of this very thing... what if we were TOO secure... in fact, if we considered ourselves PERFECT? Why, I've a saying I coined on this - If you were PERFECT, you'd be PERFECTLY unlovable.

    Admitting when we are weak, opens us up to be REAL... real is a solid foundation for all relationships... without the solid foundations, they may stand, but not forever.

    I truly enjoyed my visit today. Thanks for sharing.

    ~ Barb